9 and 8 Days Out

Oh hey there.  Missed a day, so you get a twofer.

So yesterday, nine days out, I didn't eat enough.  I missed my calorie goal by a lot, and had about three meals, two chicken and veggies, one salmon and veggies.  I just didn't have an appetite, I had a pretty shitty lift... I don' t know.  Just not my day.

I woke up in the middle of the night plagued with an itchy nose and throat from fall allergies, and I was hungry and it was keeping me awake.  I think this is the first time ever hunger has kept me awake, but the thought of eating in the middle of the night just didn't appeal to me.

When I woke up this morning, I noticed my abs were, super, super defined.   But when I looked in the mirror, I looked like hell.  Gaunt... my skin looked like it was hanging off me.  It was terrible.  Where my skin was tight on my abs, this morning it was loose and horrible, and as a mother of twins, I know loose skin man.

Yesterday, before my skin went all wrinkly old man face on me.  

  If I woke up looking like I did today on the day of the show, I don't think I would get up on stage. When I stepped on the scale, my weight was down a few more pounds, and right at the lowest number I am comfortable with, and I still have a week of dieting and drying out to do... not cool.

So, today, I had an eating free for all, and I loved it.

I should have taken pictures of my food because it was so, so good.  I started the day with Cinnamon Raisin Ezekial toast with butter.  Butter.  On bread. Good lord.

Then I sliced some sweet potatoes into thin slices, baked them, and schmeared almond butter all over then.  Unbelievable.  I had never had this before but it's what my body wanted and holy shit.  It's one of the tastiest combinations I've ever had.

Then I had some bars... some normal chicken and veggies... what else.  Peanut butter on an apple.... I don't know.  Lots of things.  I've probably had over 2,500 calories today, though I'm not counting.  It was fun to spoon nut butter (that sounds so gross every time I hear it) without busting out the measuring devices.  Look out, getting crazy over here.

Honestly, as ridiculous as this sounds, I can't wait to see how the bod responds tomorrow.  I could be super bloated, or I could look back to the way I was... I have no idea.  This really throws a wrench in my peak week plans, I just do not want to get any leaner, but I also don't want to put on more weight and look too soft.  Today is kind of an experiment to see how I should eat next Friday night... how I wake up tomorrow could be how I wake up for the show.  Super weird to be this into minute changes in my body, but I've found that being this lean your body changes hour to hour depending on what you eat.  And we are down to the wire and I want to be happy with what I bring to the stage.

What else... working on my posing a ton.  It's hard.

Oooh look at me I have sparkles on my bikini...

 K, that's all for now.  Nighty night.  :)

10 Days Out

I'm going to try to update every day with my training and diet and general progress daily until show.  This will not be entertaining.  I just really want a log of what I'm doing in case I ever decide to do this again.  I figure if I come in looking like a beached whale or skeleton I'll be able to look back and pinpoint my mistakes.

A few posts ago, I mentioned that I was going to follow this 10 day cut:


I'm just not going to.  I feel that the carb loading at the end is excessive, especially since I've been limiting my carbs for almost six weeks.  The idea is that it will fill up your muscles with glycogen so you look all buff on stage, but I feel like I'm going to "spill over" and just have a bunch of subcutaneous water that makes me bloated and hides all the work I've put in.

I don't feel far off from show ready in most parts of my body, so I'm going to use a "less is more" approach.  Basically, I'm going to follow the 10 day plan until the Wednesday before the show.  On Thursday, I might introduce some carbs, and I might even do it earlier if I'm looking too lean or feeling too shitty.

Training: AM fasted cardio - 3 mile brisk walk with a client.  Rest day from the gym.

Meal 1: Sauteed onions and peppers with one cup of egg whites, topped with Mrs. Dash Chili Lime seasoning.  This has been my staple for months and is still not getting old.  I liked it better with chicken sausage and feta, but whatev.   Also had a quarter cup of raspberries because they looked heavenly in the fridge.   Side note - I try to hold off on breakfast as long as possible because then I feel less hungry during the day.

TOTALS:

171 cal

16 carb

0 fat

25 protein

Snack:  1 tbs PB2.  If you are cutting calories and you don't know about PB2, you need to.   It's powdered peanut butter... just ground peanuts with the oil removed and a little bit of salt and sugar.
I just ate it with a spoon because I just wanted something tasty.

TOTALS:

23 cal

3 carb

1 fat

3 protein

Meal 2:  6 oz Tilapia seasoned with Mrs. Dash Lemon Pepper.  2 cups roasted broccoli.  Eaten cold in the car.   Not the most awesome meal.

TOTALS:

211 cal

9 carb

3 fat

39 protein

Meal 3: 6 oz Tilapia seasoned with Mrs. Dash Lemon Pepper.  2 cups roasted broccoli.  Eaten warm in the car.   Actually pretty delicious.

TOTALS:

211 cal

9 carb

3 fat

39 protein

Meal 4:  7 oz salmon baked with honey mustard, 1 cup roasted brussels sprouts.  Just freaking delicious.  Best piece of salmon I've had in forever.  

TOTALS:

352 cal

11 carb

10 fat

55 protein

As I type this, it's seven pm, and I'm at: 

Totals:

1,010 cal

53 carb

19 fat

162 protein

So I have about a hundred calories left, and the challenge will be finding something with less than five carbs... hmmmm.....

2 Weeks Out

Holy shit.

Less than two weeks.  Sometimes it seems like a long, long way away... and then I realize... holy shit.  That's only three leg days.  I'm only going to bench twice more before then....

On a side note, did I really just tell time in workouts?  Huh.  I'm sure I'm just fascinating to be around right now.

Let's get right into it:

Highlights of the Week:

I remember nothing.  I had a super busy weekend that started with me waking up at six to get grocery shopping and leg day in before spectating for a client at her first 5k.  Then my girlfriend came into town from lands far away to run a race the following morning, so we chit chatted and meal-prepped the day away.. went for dinner (where I sadly didn't dine), then I went to work from 8pm-3ish am.  Slept from about 4:00am-4:45am, did race activities including running eightish with the best runner I know, then.. did. not.  sleep.

 

I was up for about 36 hours minus the tiny napper and it wiped away my memory of the week. 

• Posing practice - Ahh yes.  Today I went back to place where I took my posing lesson and used the mirrored room to practice.  It really is nuts how much different your body looks when you are posing properly.

Man shoulders and goofy hair for the win.

Bod Progress:  B

So back and forth depending on carbs, sodium, etc.  I was really bloated for most of the week and feeling like crap (and four pounds heavier), but the water went away (I think it was too much sodium), and now I feel fine.

Mental Check-In: A-

One foot in front of the other.  Just ready for it to be here.

Training: A

I lifted six times, and ran four for a total of 18 miles.

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Diet:  B

I had another unscheduled cheat day, and an accidental super low calorie day.  On the day I stayed up all night, I only ate about 800 kcal because I didn't have time to eat at work like I had planned.  The next day I made up for the defecit... and then some with a huge, huge cheat.  13 days out.  Whoops.  I ate trail mix, multiple protein bars, cinnamon raisin Ezekial toast like it was going out of style... what else.  PB2 with two apples... 

I realize that probably doesn't sound horrible, and it's not, but it is about 1000 extra calories.  I don't mind what I ate, or the calories, it's just that I didn't plan on it, and I only did it because I was so, so overtired and my willpower was shot.  Oh well.  

Peace.